Yesterday was a long day.
Still recovering from infection
Deadlines and difficulties
These were the tangible. Things I could resolve or at least improve by doing something.
The intangibles, though we’re swirling around my thoughts all day, one interrupting the other, colliding with tangible.
The thoughts, the questions, the lingering pending situations kept coming back around all day long. Intangibles are persistent interruptions.
What will the Dr.say tomorrow?
What if my employee is lying?
Will my children’s futures hold what they’ve worked for?
Hoped for…dreamed of?
Will they be healthy and free of emotional hardship? What if Ebola…?
Why do I feel my prayers aren’t heard?
Should I really believe that God has equipped me to write…to share my story for good?
And on and on until days end, driving to the evening meeting, an obligation for image sake.
Sometimes I sing my prayers. It’s a pretty amazing thing when it happens because it’s essentially a flow of thoughts, words. Like coming up with lyrics to a song…the words just come.
Not yesterday though…I started off, “Dear Lord, I’m thankful. I am grateful and….” then, nothing.
So, desperate words, spoken softly as I drove came easy. “Dear Lord, I just need to hear from you, to have a glimpse of good.”
Home an hour or so later, a usually tension filled meeting adjourned quickly. My son is happy and home. My daughter announces her school’s major accomplishment received today, exactly a year since her 1st day teaching there. My son tweets Matthew 6:34. My daughter enjoys my cooking, saying “that’s some pretty good Quiche there, Lisa.” I go to bed without a headache for first time in days. To be sure, I was thinking of my honest request, my prayer.
This morning, my Jesus Calling devotion started with finding Joy in my presence. A few lines later,
Recall that I am present with you whether you sense my Presence or not. Then, start talking with me about whatever is on your mind. JESUS CALLING, Enjoying Peace in His Presence
But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord. I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me. Micah 7:7