Connie texted me “your duck painting sold! You need to paint some roosters!
“Gotcha! See you next week.” I replied.
Went to the little room to finish some “girls” before moving to roosters and decided, not today, I’ll wait. I’ll let these rest for now. I have time next week.
Come away by yourselves to a desolate place and rest a while. Jesus
The verse before this one tells of how the disciples told Jesus we’ve been working so hard that we haven’t even taken the time eat.
They’d just seen Jesus rejected in the town of his birth, Nazareth.
They were discouraged. Jesus told them let’s move on.
Reminded me of me, my little affirmations to self: “Learn from it and carry on. Turn the page, begin again, you’ve done what you could, do the next thing, take a new road…”
“And he marveled because of their unbelief. And he went about among the villages teaching.”
Mark 6:6 ESV
He told them, you go now, paired them up. You can do this on your own. They had little other than his brief but firm instruction.
“And if any place will not receive you and they will not listen to you, when you leave, shake off the dust that is on your feet as a testimony against them.” So they went out and proclaimed that people should repent.
And they cast out many demons and anointed with oil many who were sick and healed them.”
Mark 6:11-13 ESV
Yesterday, I walked towards my car, exhorting myself over a presentation. The words came to mind easy…”I can do all things through Christ…”
I got in the car, got the navigation set and thought about the “all”.
I knew so clearly then, the meeting might not go well. An easy drive despite construction and fog until I took my exit and I was blind to the spot where the black car’s door was inches from mine.
A split second. I glanced over and the black car kept moving, I barely slowed; yet, we were spared, the stranger I didn’t see and me, we both continued on.
God gave me warning, be careful, be alert, be prepared.
The presentation did not go well. I was not prepared in the way the one questioning demanded and their expectations were quite clearly stated with my deficiencies made known. But, the morning taught me some things. “I understand” I told the questioner.
No, you cannot do all things, Lisa.
You can do all of the things that come to you through me.
Some places you go will not receive you well. Some people you meet will not be interested in your testimonies, your stories.
Dust yourself off and decide to try again or not, don’t discount the things you know are not your “all” through me that my Spirit has made clear.
When the disciples reunited with Jesus, they’d accomplished much for Him, but they’d also suffered grief and hardship.
They had to bury John, who’d been beheaded. They were hungry and tired and if the word was in their vocabulary back then, I believe they knew burnout.
Jesus calmly invites them to rest. He sends them out, encourages they go away and recover.
And I believe this was a welcome command. I see them heaving a sigh of gratitude and turning to go and find that quiet place.
But, others followed. Many were coming and going and they all were in great need.
Jesus had compassion on them, called them sheep without a shepherd to guide their way.
The disciples must have wondered, I thought you told us to rest. We found the place to rest, can we rest now?
“And when it grew late, his disciples came to him and said, “This is a desolate place, and the hour is now late. Send them away to go into the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat.”
Jesus answered, “No, we need to feed them.”
And they were fed, all five thousand of them from a couple of fish and five loaves.
I told my friend about the horrible presentation, about how defeated and tired I felt.
She asked me why I continue. A woman walked from the hallway and around the corner to cook her supper in the kitchen of a home that’s not hers, a shelter.
Yesterday, she’d raked the backyard of our home we call, “Nurture”. She called me over and I thanked her.
I asked how she’s doing. She said “I’m keeping on!” and turned to finish her work.
I know why you continue she said after I’d pointed to the woman walking by the door.
“The greater good, for the greater good.”
No more need for complaint or question.
Dusted myself off to try again.
I’m writing, prompted by the “invite”, shared in the Five Minute Friday. More than five minutes, clearly. Still, I’m linking up because I consider the invitation open despite my way over the time rule.
I’ve discovered Kelly Balarie this morning and some good words on self condemnation and fear. Linking up with others at http://purposefulfaith.com/