Slowly, my perspective is changing.
Consistently, I am enlightened by God.
Finally, I am beginning to create a space for freedom to be true.
I heard a sermon from Lamentations last week, the highlighted passage was on the steadfast quality of God’s love. It’s well known, an affirmative promise.
My mind wandered, I admit.
I have a hard time in a room with noises that distract, so I’ll focus my attention on my little space.
I’ll buffer the outside and go inside, reading ahead, veering a few lines or a chapter away to the other verses, protective of my focus and intentional in my holding close what’s mine, what’s beneficial.
Same way in my daily readings. this morning, only a few words because of time.
Yet, timely, so timely. Gone, going are the days of holding onto hurt like a treasure, a badge marking honorable mention for making it through.
We talked about my story last week, my friend and I.
Talked about the possibility of a changeup.
“Change-up”, the phrase paints a memory for me and I digress. My son’s reaction when he got that one right, priceless was his joy! The batter befuddled by the sudden change in pattern, tricked by his expectation of the fastball or the curve, he couldn’t adapt.
He couldn’t throw it too often, the batters grew to expect it, prepared and anticipated and they’d connect, triumphant their expression, they adapted, adjusted and met what was thrown a little differently, refusing to be struck out, struck down and defeated.
My story is wrought with trauma and it made…makes me vulnerable, just the thought of its presentation and mostly, its lack of completion.
But, a changeup is in the works, slowly the perspective is changing and my mind is catching up to the curve.
Not fear, not remorse, not hard heard recollection, rather an authentic expression of gratitude and hope in the midst of every stage.
I’m adapting. I’m hopeful, less hindered by my vulnerability and my striving towards redeeming my wrongs and the wrongs done towards me.
Adapting my story from a fearful perspective to more of a welcome gift of forgiveness to others.
Not about me, my fears or my falters, rather about those steadfast in their hope for me.
My life, an adaptation of God.
“I called on your name, O Lord, from the depths of the pit; you heard my plea, ‘Do not close your ear to my cry for help!’ You came near when I called on you; you said, ‘Do not fear!’ “You have taken up my cause, O Lord; you have redeemed my life.”
Lamentations 3:55-58 ESV
Linking up with others, writing for 5 minutes, prompted by “adapt”.
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