I have a little pebble on which I wrote the word persist. It rests in the little dish shaped like an oak leaf, the color pale green, leaves marked with tender veins.
It has remained in this spot since I began.
Since I began to write.
This morning, I got specific with God.
After some names I list every morning, family, friends and some very ill suddenly others, I asked for help in my surrender to God’s control.
I added a few new phrases with marks of question…
- Writing conference?
- Writing memoir?
- New site for art?
- Incourage submission?
- Piece on anxiety?
and a bold question.
Are any of these your will for me to pursue?
Added more names beside little bullets and finally, asked
Give me boldness, not fear.
Less than a few inches from one page of my journal to the other, I’ve added a verse I’d missed before, meant for me this morning.
In the first of the two Timothy books, chapter four, Timothy tells followers to persist.
I know the passage.
It’s underlined and has an angelic me in the margin, a scribbled note to self about persisting.
I continue through the passage and discover words new to me.
There for me to see.
An answer, already.
“Practice these things, immerse yourself in them, so that all may see your progress.”
1 Timothy 4:15 ESV
Practice, submit the piece, paint new pieces, organize them like portfolio on display, continue writing, persist in painting.
I read again, the answer to my prayer and then got up from my spot to feed the dog.
Then discovered a bird in a panic, afraid.
A tiny bird, trapped in the corner of our porch was frantic, feathered wings faltering then flapping.
The Lab tilted his head to the side, his expression matching mine.
I move to help it be free and in an instant I see, the bird has flown from the corner, flying, flying free.
No longer bumping against our screen, cornered, hemmed in and unsure.
It continued, continued, continued until it was free.
Free like me, for me
For all of me to see.