I see the cloud, I step in. I want to see Your glory like Moses did. Flashes of light and rolls of thunder. I’m not afraid. I’m not afraid. Jesus Culture
Somewhere between the nightstand and the hallway, I misplaced my glasses. I want to turn back and look again, my hand unable to find them in the dark before the day.
My husband is sleeping, I’ll get by without them. Stepping into the air of day, the sky is pink behind the pines and I squint hoping to get an unobstructed view.
It’s not possible. I long for a wide open space, an expanse of empty field.
Like the place of my childhood, room to roam, to run, to see for miles to come.
I look up and I am welcomed. Little cotton ball clouds all clustered and I can’t get enough and yet so much more, always more.
The slow shifting sky above me, more and more to see.
The morning after deciding I might never be enough, this rushing into making up for lost time on wasted days and jumping into every chance for fear there will be no more!
A rejection, the fifth or six and I said to myself, well you’re not an encourager really, you can’t write an encouraging submission. Encouragement is not your voice.
I bet God just loves it when I talk to myself that way, it’s always either fear or truth. One way or the other, it’s growth.
Maybe Moses worried he was running out of time, afraid the calling and the task might not be complete.
He prayed and asked God to show Him the way, to show him His glory.
“And he said, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.””
Exodus 33:14 ESV
God assured him, I’m gonna be with you and you’re gonna know without a doubt you’ve been in my presence, but I can’t show you everything, you won’t see my face.
God told Moses that he would lead him and that mercy would be shown along with goodness. Moses saw God walk away and nothing was ever the same.
Moses was not afraid.
Not afraid to be led and to lead.
Or that he would run out of time or provision.
The measure of my success is often skewed by my fear of not being enough, fear I won’t have the time or won’t choose to go on.
A futile mindset, until I was reminded by the sky and the glory and later, discovered my glasses at the foot of the bed and carried on, carried on anticipating the next time I’ll be reminded to notice God in my presence,
His glory reminding me, I am not afraid.
Linking up with others who are writing for 31days. I can’t say I’m following all the rules or that my presence is share-worthy encouragement, I’m just writing…Freely.