No wonder I don’t want to leave, my morning time with God is always too brief.
This morning God told me,
It’s like He truly has me and He wants to keep me here, wants me to really know His keeping.
Yes, my morning time is too brief, I’m getting stronger at taking it longer into my day.
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 1:6 NIV
Because I slept well and long, my meet the day prayer today was brief.
The feeling followed me down the hall, the regret of my request.
I asked God for “opportunities” and chastised myself no sooner than the thought became a conversation. Thinking,
Oh, sorry let me take that back…I’ve already had enough and haven’t done so well with them.
I barely made it to the Keurig before I changed my perspective.
I remembered my pattern.
God reminded me.
When I don’t write or when my writing is rejected, I immediately believe it has nothing to do with my skills or my content; but, everything with my worthiness.
Viciously sensitive and cyclical is the dilemma of my endeavor. I will return once again, maybe this afternoon to the old desk where words have been written, pieces and parts and starts, because I heard God this morning.
His reply was quick.
You have to write bravely.
Pointing me away from the obligatory or copycat attempts to be one of those women who write and towards Him and yes, back to me.
Back to brave.
Back to the story that won’t let go.
“Now I want you to know, brothers and sisters, that what has happened to me has actually served to advance the gospel.”
Philippians 1:12 NIV
I bet you have a thing like that, a thing God told you was for you, the treasure you believed was there, slowly began to believe Him enough to dig it up.
Maybe you were afraid your treasure might not be treasured or that you’d be insufficient in your conveyance of just how glorious your God is for giving you the ability, the opportunity,
The unabashed bravery to pursue it!
Yeah, that’s the thing mostly. Something that God has told you is this huge a chance, a calling…oh, you don’t want to be responsible for it being any less.
I ramble, I get pitiful.
Forgive me. I’m surely no victim!
“Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own because Christ Jesus has made me his own.”
Philippians 3:12 ESV
What we see as hard, God sees as worthy of our doing.
What we see as unlikely, God sees as possible.
What we see as unexpected of our accomplishing, God sees as brave and intentional daily, momentous surrender.
We must be brave or we’ll never be fully seen, He will never be fully seen through us!
We must tell whole stories, not just give hints or glimpses of our rescue and redemption.
Otherwise, how will others know the story behind the things we say, the little expressions we throw out?
Afraid of telling the entirety of before.
One I’m prone to declare quite often…
Not me, but you Lord.
Jesus in me, showing through me, inviting others to have to the same hope of glory.
Glory, as in eternal life, a heavenly home.
I only hint at what that means, fully surrendered and cooperative, obedient to His plan.
I’ve no idea why this seems scary, why I must be brave.
It should come as easy as breathing and last way longer than my morning coffee.
It must surely be the most perplexing thing an uncertain or nonbeliever sees,
The meandering missteps of a believer. We’re confident and then we’re not or we’re complete and then complacent.
Yet, it’s that reality that tells our story, the recognition that we struggle, we’re not able on our own.
It’s also His mercy that sets our stumbling back on track, is kind in the giving grace for our once again, beginnings to see.
That we’re good and close to God every morning and day by day that closeness and that light go longer and brighter through our days and into our nights.
We press on even though the fear remains, we hear the voices of doubt saying stop…don’t go.
But, we hear the other.
We become good listeners and we hear The Father saying,
We get up again and we, with Him, bravely go!
Some time ago, a speaker suggested we read from beginning to end and again and again, the Book of Philippians.
My Bible is evidence of the difference it made, Paul’s personal expressions of the importance of humility, of loving Christ fully, being lights in our world, being brave communicators of the life and death of Jesus, of our lives changed because of His.
“Only let us hold true to what we have attained.”
Philippians 3:16 ESV
He’s not finished with me yet. Brandon Heath