In a matter of twenty minutes, these are my thoughts upon waking:
Set your intention.
Tomorrow’s freedom is today’s surrender.
Resilience can be developed, the effects of trauma can be undone. It is like exercise, my choice.
First, I roused from a heavy like cinder block sleep that finally came about 3:00.
Mind you, I had been sleeping, just not resting.
Years ago, I had no sleep apnea but my mind was found to be a racer, a wrestler all night, the report told. But, I woke and from I don’t know where, thought “set your intentions.” thinking of my friend the gentle, Dana and how I rarely make it to her class. Still, this might be a worthy goal for me, every day.
Set your intention.
Then, a song you won’t hear on the radio and rarely on your favorite subscription, the lilting tone in the voice of a man I decide is surely kind, sings of tomorrow’s freedom being today’s surrender.
Lord as we turn to You
Come free us from our sin
We only have today
So let us now begin
From dawn to dusk
We are waking up. Dawn to Dusk, All Sons and Daughters
Thirdly, I’m scrolling twitter and land on an article on resilience. I decide, this may be good and so as I’m waiting for the coffee press to do its little trick, I read.
Wouldn’t you know it?
It’s about focus and choices in our mindsets, our turning negative to good by deciding to look for the “silver lining”.
The article describes Bradley Cooper’s character remembering a song that sparked his outburst, his sadness and his potentially defeatist again mindset. Jennifer Lawrence tells him it is just a song. (By the way, did you see the greatest moment in my opinion of the Oscars, only second to Regina King’s acceptance? Bradley Cooper exited the stage with Lady Gaga on his arm and lifted his hand to his forehead as if wiping the sweat from his brow in a whew of relief.”
Saying, at least to me,
I did the thing I thought I couldn’t do.
The choice to not be led down a path of negativity towards depression and dismay signifies not allowing your past to dictate your future.
It is not easy, patterns are embedded. It’s safer to be the you that you and everyone else has always known.
To set your intention on that little tiny pinpoint light calling you forward, not the murkiness of the darkest traumas of before.
To measure your life in a dawn to dusk way, to wake up and surrender every morning, believing over time tomorrow will only know freedom, no longer waking to unravel your nighttime tragic dramas.
To look for the silver lining, tell about the silver linings you never imagined would be. The biggie for me, stop saying oh my goodness I never thought it could be, still letting the past have its undeserving part in my story.
Instead, celebrate with intention and boldness the good, all of the good!
Try not to include the bad in as many of your stories!
Be amazed at the lining up your morning, take it with you all day.
A waking thought giving you a new way to think about healing.
A song about freedom.
An article about the power of the mind and the way we drive our days, our lives, simply by choosing the optimistic road.
The steadfast love of God endures all the day. Psalm 52:1