A friend is praying that God would give me memory.
I’ve lost something I haven’t needed in years and I cannot find it, my college diploma.
Yesterday, my pregnant daughter asked if I remembered a certain pain and I didn’t, so I blamed it on one thing I did remember harshly…when it was actually another, my lack of memory,
Then told her it’s true what they say.
You don’t remember the pain once your baby is here.
I’m wondering if my friend’s prayers are stirring my memories as a whole, of all sorts of things.
I woke with first thought, prayer.
God, help me to know you more.
There are disjointed possibilities in my life, a new one popped up yesterday. I gotta circle back around, finish multiple things, my mind and plans chaotic over stuff begun and not finished
My thoughts are all over the place.
I make the coffee, open the door for fresh air and I remember.
“If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.”
James 1:5 ESV
An elderly couple lived below us, my younger brother and me. We were not quiet apartment dwellers. We were single and in our 20’s. We frequented “River Street” in Savannah and found our way back home safely, how?
God only knows.
I watched them on Sundays, they’d come and go clutching Bibles, holding hands.
I avoided them in my comings and goings until one day in the stairwell, I came face to face with the husband, a sharply dressed gentleman.
I asked, “How can I know God’s will?”
He answered simply, “Know God.”
That was two decades ago and his answer left me hanging, left me lacking not longing. I wanted so much more than an answer so broad.
I desired a quick list or an easy plan.
I wanted it “one and done” for me, quickly fix me, God, I know you can!
Perfection, I yearned for, had no understanding of grace, God’s patience, His allowance of progression.
How in the world could we imagine God’s will as only quick when, after all, He has us and the whole world in His hands? He orders our seconds, minutes, hours and days. Their unfolding, He knows.
I understand the simplicity yet mystery now.
His pursuit of me is graceful and grace-filled.
There’s no end road to knowing God’s will.
It is a beautiful unraveling, a revealing of splendor and clarity and abundance as we go.
As we go unaffected by our daze and confusion only illumined by His spirit, His dwelling within us.
How do we know God’s will? I believe we remain quietly intent in our pursuit of Him.
He knows. Just ask Him.
God is everywhere. Don’t forget to notice. me
Linking up today with others at Five Minute Friday who are writing on the prompt “Lack”. https://fiveminutefriday.com/2019/04/11/fmf-writing-prompt-link-up-lack/