Imagine always knowing everything, all the angst driven questions about you and all around you, people, stuff, nagging questions.
We wait for understanding and get all frustrated in the waiting.
As if we’re in an audience before the big emotion driven announcement.
As if a large presence of a person intent on projecting themselves as an authority on the subject
Is up high on a mountaintop and is speaking into a megaphone of sorts, this presence echoing down into our valley
That we happen to be stoic and standing in.
We are waiting.
Looking up longingly with our faces intent and our ears straining to retain every word.
Anticipating a great and mighty answer.
For me, the answer to this prayer.
What is the truth?
My prayer yesterday evening, one of very few words as I knelt in the bathtub after my shower.
God, I want to know the truth.
And He answered me this morning.
I woke with no coffee and so I made a Chick Fil A run.
Rather than music, I listened to a podcast on curiosity. The voice of Elizabeth Gilbert was strong buffered by gentle interludes.
I arrived back home, poured my coffee from the cup into a pretty mug, opened my memorandum, April 26th entered and then wrote boldly.
You will know the truth and the truth will set you free.
I wanted to assure myself, you will know the what and how and why and who of this troubling situation. You will know truth.
Then I considered, well Lisa Anne, What is truth?
Then rather than ruminate or dictionary search, I sat quietly and I listened to input from it would seem nowhere.
What is truth?
Truth is knowing that you are not all-knowing, never will be. Truth is knowing that you do have and are loved by a God who knows all. That knowledge is your truth. This truth is always enough.
“Jesus said to the people who believed in him, “You are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
John 8:31-32 NLT
It occurs to me now, which would I choose given one or the other?
Would I choose to know everything, every behind the scenes calculation and misconstrued conversation?
Would I choose the precision of each coming occurrence, its timing and its success or failure?
Would I choose to know the truth about all things, all human and prompted by sinful predisposition to veer interactions with others?
Or would I choose truth, would I choose knowing Jesus and abiding there?
May I turn myself around smack dab in the middle of life’s road when I venture the opposite way, seeking to know it all over trusting the One who does.
“Jesus told him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me.”
John 14:6 NLT
I’d rather know Jesus than be a know it all.
Thank you, Father for answering my Friday night prayer on this quiet Saturday morning. I am yours. You are truth. Because of mercy, Amen
May I cling to this knowledge, I know God. God knows me.
This truth is all we need.
What is it that you are dying to know? Is there an issue, an affront, an unkind occurrence or maybe a hope you need to believe might come true?
May you, like me find peace if only at first in tiny little bits, in the truth of abiding in Him.
And may our tiny little epiphany moments lead to hours and eventual days and whole lives hemmed in safely by mercy, grace guiding us onward.
Onward in a way that absolutely no momentary circumstantial truth matters, only the truth Himself and the truth of Him.
Happy Saturday y’all! Today is a very good day!