It would be quite the writing skill to describe the sky as eloquently as I saw it.
As spectacular as it spoke to me this morning.
I know, another sky inspired post.
Yes, I’m unafraid to say it is so.
Thanks to Charlie the pup I’m outdoors in the morning before and as the sun appears and into the revelation of the day.
I stood in my spot, remembered to look up.
Rain predicted later, sky currently bright blue with sweeping up dust of white sheets.
The clouds are shifting quickly, I mean really quickly.
A silent plane pushes through thick ones and past the barely there half moon.
I watch the silent wonder of its flight and I decide then,
I’m gonna fly one day.
I want to watch the movement longer but decide it could consume my entire day.
Standing outdoors until the rain comes later, all because of being entranced by the shifting space of my world.
I notice clearly.
I am shifting.
Back inside, there’s coffee rich with cream and sweet with honey.
I added a header to my subject line:
- I notice I make things bigger than they are.
- Movement is occurring and I see it today.
- I am less afraid.
Thinking now how growth only is possible when we are willing to accept a shift in perspective.
I read this morning in three places, the recommendation that I not harden my heart.
The psalmist in the 95th psalm implores us to remember we are God’s people, a cautionary reminder not to let our hearts be hard and wandering, 40 years or even just an hour, a day.
Looking for Him in other places, moody over our maladies.
“For he is our God, and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand. Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts, as at Meribah, as on the day at Massah in the wilderness,”
Psalms 95:7-8 ESV
The Book of Hebrews, a book by an unknown author written to encourage Christ followers in trying times, tells us the same.
Do not harden your heart.
I thought of what may cause a heart to harden.
Not necessarily anger, resentment, unreconciled wrongs, lack of remorse on the part of an abuser, harsh words used against you that were untruths, or happenings that happened to those you love when it appears others get miraculously easy, free passes daily.
My mind and soul went elsewhere and I followed the new path.
I began to ponder what it would mean to be “malleable”.
Not being sure the description was fitting, I searched.
Saw immediately, oh that’s referring to metal, to hard surfaces and to industrial type objects, not the image of a potter reworking clay or massaging a heart grown hard in a calm and loving sort of way.
I realized though that malleable might just be the way to be willing in change.
Malleable, capable of being controlled or altered by an outside influence, the capacity for adapting to change.
I thought again of hardness of heart and considered its result from other than the hateful circumstances of our lives.
We harden our hearts when we give up on the shifting.
We harden our hearts when we don’t believe in the possibility of different.
We harden our hearts when we decide to live in dismay rather than trusting promised deliverance.
“Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts.”
Hebrews 4:7 ESV
I said a prayer last week.
I remembered all I had been saved from and sustained through and each ugly truth and hard admission, I offered one by one…
Thank you, God. You sustained me through __________ and you will sustain me again.
Fill in the immeasurable blank.
May our hearts be malleable, be softened by our seeking rather than our grumbling or self soothing choices that are futile.
May we remember our wilderness days as a constant reminder of God’s sustenance.
I’m not a theological scholar. I read my Bible as if it were a great mystery just waiting to give me my life’s next clue.
And it does. It surprises and engages me when I allow it.
I understand in new ways things I read before or had been taught in a hammering hard critical shouting tone and way.
Like there are hearts so hard even God can’t soften them and like people like me who made mistakes who can’t really know redemption, only say they do as they depressingly conceal their expected doubts.
Or don’t embrace the shifting of perspective, the embrace of promised peace.
A final prayer:
Lord, help me keep longer the soft spoken lessons you are teaching me, may I speak and live the way you prompt me to write about believing. Yes, Lord, I want to believe the way I write believing. me
May today our attention turn to you as we stand in our crowded and noisy fields or our vacant, empty and at times lonely places.
May we know without doubt that you know our names.
May we know you as our patient and persistent teacher, the shifter of our hard perspectives.
“And I will bring the blind by a way that they knew not; I will lead them in paths that they have not known: I will make darkness light before them, and crooked things straight. These things will I do unto them, and not forsake them.”
Isaiah 42:16 KJV
Click here to read Mary’s take on the summertime blues. I was happy to know I’m not the only one who’s occasionally moody for no reason.