“You have trusted Him in a few things, and He has not failed you.” Hannah Whitall Smith
Work is in progress behind my window.
Heavy machinery harvesting timber.
The wide field that welcomed a spontaneous “capture the flag” adventure on a memorable New Year’s Eve is becoming more empty day by day.
The place where the cousins cavorted, that’s a memory nothing will take away.
Memories, such beautiful yet onerous things.
We discussed the motivation behind the new landowner’s intentions.
My husband added “Yeah, they’re raping the land.”
He paused for a minute when I gave no reply and I saw in his eyes that he regretted the word.
The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O’ bring Thou me out of my distresses. Psalm 35:17
And that’s progress.
That knowing of me by him.
This morning I opened my devotional to read and felt seen and known.
He made you and understands you, and knows how to manage you, and you must trust Him to do it. Hannah Whitall Smith
I move to put my books away and see I’ve been moved by words for the 29th of August rather than July.
There are no accidents with God, the truth meant for a month from now is what is needed today.
The greatest burden we have to carry in life is self. Hannah Whitall Smith
Smith was an author, a Quaker, a fighter for women. She was a mother to seven children with only three who survived. Something she fought for resulted in “scandal” and I am thinking it had to do with women.
She wrote about God as a God of comfort and one to be trusted.
She died in 1911. I’m glad she left her footprint through words.
For me by accident this morning.
The lot across from my home is changing. The place that kept me feeling like I was still back home in Georgia will be nothing but vacant and leveled soon.
Empty space for consideration.
A place for new. And it’s not up to me what it becomes, only how I decide see it.
Same with struggle, with grief, with open wounds waiting to be healed.
Grief must be complete before life can be full.
Oddly, I’m grieving what’s happening with the strong and lovely trees across the way.
I love someone who’s dealing with the same, an unwelcome change in the space she felt still, felt safe.
Causes me to consider and to welcome that maybe hard consideration.
What is it that you’re not allowing in?
What is it that you’ve not fully grieved.
What do you harbor that’s only been allowed God’s peeking in for a sort of intake session, pre-intervention, taking from you?
What are you avoiding revisiting because you abhor the ugliness and truth of what it includes?
What are you not inviting a closer and clearer look at and in doing so, only prolonging the splendid healing?
Allow your knees to hit the floor, tell God your secret sorrow.
Let the tears flow.
Welcome the clearing.
Welcome the hard seeing that feels so achingly self-destructive of your wounded soul.
No one likes to cry.
But, if we’re honest it leads to better.
Embrace the joy that is waiting but cannot arrive til you’ve let the sorrow begin and be done.
Not happenstance that July 29th would also include a HWS quote and a verse about God as our maker, the Father we can trust.
And a question from Isaiah about to whom we belong and who He is…
“This is what the Lord says— the Holy One of Israel and your Creator: “Do you question what I do for my children? Do you give me orders about the work of my hands? I am the one who made the earth and created people to live on it. With my hands I stretched out the heavens. All the stars are at my command.”
Isaiah 45:11-12 NLT
One worthy of my trust.
Maker of heaven, earth, tress and me.
Continue and believe.