Not sure which is the source of more regret, sharing our sorrows and discontentment or pretending they don’t exist, that elation and contentment never ever wane as we walk with our Lord amongst others.
Rubbing shoulders with their successes, exposing our less.
The back of my mind wonders if others wonder,
Who is this God she mentions and then seems to regularly forget?
The God who calls her back because He knows her, knows her fully, knows she’s willing to listen again.
“If you faint in the day of adversity, your strength is small.”
Proverbs 24:10 ESV
God who knows I’m learning, getting more comfortable with my strengths.
I saw Saturday morning beginning from a distance through the kitchen window.
I rose to see for myself the source of the glow making mosaics in the space of pine trees.
Sun coming up after a hard rain.
I pick the tiny bud realizing it’s been a bit since I brought one in.
Saturday beginning again to remind me not to despise small things.
Small things like regret over words painted by pity that longed for expression.
A sacrifice for others I guess, a place for their brave me too.
I’m happy for Saturday.
Lessons have settled, done their work and woke me with, although reluctant, a return to determination.
To get back with what is mine to do, gather myself up and submit all my efforts and energy to getting back on track.
Oddly, “the Stones” are in agreement with scripture today.
I will get what I need.
Not always what I want.
If I try, sometimes.
How we live either stirs us up or settles us. Let your heart hold what’s in your hands right this very moment. Gently discipline yourself again and again and again…until there’s no frantic grasping for other things. You’ve become satisfied with only what is yours to seek, to gather, to make good things from, to hold a bit and then share with others. Your art. Your words.
Try sometime and then sometime again.
You’ll get what you need.
When your heart changes your mind and takes the lead.
Spreads down from your shoulders, your arms, your fingers.
Love you believe, love you release.
Art and words.
Continue and believe.