Does not wisdom call?
Does not understanding raise her voice? Proverbs 8:1
I heard them off in the distance and decided they were traversing through the warm fog towards the expected pond down the road.
I stood as the puppy followed his pattern, checking out the corner shrub, sniffing at the dirt; he is so slow in the mornings to do “his business”.
The sound of the geese came closer and I expected to see them fly over the four homes down subdivision.
Instead they were sounding very close.
I stood as the sound approached and there they were, two sets of geese perfectly positioned over me. So very close, I could see the pattern of their feathers and their soft curved bellies, their beaks breaking up the fog.
Two sets of seven or eight or so in their arrow design making their way to must be a new destination, course change, following new directions today.
The puppy scurried towards me and was startled, his little face looking up towards the sky as he hurried.
This is new for him, I thought; he has to figure out if he should run away or be okay, trusting their kind and sweetly patterned arrival.
Being safe and simply noticing.
Like the random occurrence of the dragonfly perched on my cup poolside, it rested until I noticed and because I noticed, I captured it on my phone.
Someone asked, “You’re taking a picture of a dragonfly?”
I don’t believe I responded.
Because I had no idea the symbolism and I didn’t know how beautiful it and its traditional meaning would be.
Until this morning.
Until the meaning lined up with my prayer.
The Dragonfly normally lives most of its life as a nymph or an immature. It flies only for a fraction of its life. This symbolizes and exemplifies the virtue of living in the moment and living life to the fullest.
I’m back to bedside prayers in the morning. To be honest it’s sometimes more like a long low downward dog pose, hoping for relief in the ache of low back.
I tumble from my bed to the floor determined to at the very least start well.
I think of the invalid who’d been so very close to healing waters but waited over half his life for someone to help him get well, help him from the ground into the water.
He waited to be noticed, for maybe someone to care and he used the excuses that well everyone else is beating me there, the line’s too long or perhaps, he felt the waters had lost their strength because of all the help they’d given everyone else…
Could there still be healing enough left in the water for me?
After all those years, he was paralyzed, not only his limbs but his mind and his soul.
Oh, man! I understand.
Stay where you are, settle in your place of thinking you can but never will.
“One man was there who had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had already been there a long time, he said to him, “Do you want to be healed?” The sick man answered him, “Sir, I have no one to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, and while I am going another steps down before me.” Jesus said to him, “Get up, take up your bed, and walk.” And at once the man was healed, and he took up his bed and walked.”
John 5:5-9 ESV
It’s no coincidence, the geese flying over, the visiting dragonfly and my different prayer this morning.
Lord, can my life truly be different? Help me live today in pursuit of the difference in me that only you know. Help me to be moment by moment today instead of rushing towards this evening, tomorrow or even next year. Can my life really be different? I’m willing to see.
I don’t think we know at all, even an ounce of what God might have planned if we are patient, persistent and willing.
I don’t think we see the magic and power of getting up from our “mats”… our places on the ground or the floor and embracing the change and changes God says are possible when we forget all the barriers, the doubts, the distractions and the pull of life backward or in unhealthy directions.
It may be slow. I’ll try to be steady.
I’ll go slow.
I’ll follow unknown paths perhaps.
Moment by moment, change will come and I’ll find myself in small yet surrendered places.
Positioned with Him because I moved from my worn out tattered and sad place and into the healing water.
Continue and believe.