Not intentionally, I sat in the section where the older men gather for breakfast.
I didn’t want to sit next to the windows, not cold just chilly.
I’m out with a list of errands, early and sans makeup or shower.
I longed for my daddy as one came and then another.
Comparing ailments, discussing Georgia football, reading the wrong day’s paper they discovered.
I had been thinking about Christmases of before, about hard memories, about what Christmas sometimes does to people.
Still, I missed my daddy, he left me too young.
So, I finish my meal and then sip on strong coffee.
I’m listening to their commentary and their kindness as the biscuit maker from the kitchen’s early shift rounds the corner to join them.
They catch up with one another.
The tone is pleasant.
The biscuit maker and I, we belong.
I miss my mama and my daddy at Christmas.
I’ll be attentive to who they may have been had they been allowed to be here still.
My daddy would be talking with the biscuit maker, mama too.
She’d be joining in.
She’d know right away why the biscuits were “too flaky”, what the chef had done wrong with the dough.
The gentlemen are talking behind me now,
I’ll gather my tray and go.
Give them a nod, have a good day.
They’ll wish me the same I believe.
Now I go, I go in peace towards Christmas.