The corner of my eye caught the flash of what I decided was red.
A red bird it wasn’t.
A sparrow bounced about on our porch. I watched wondering why I was so certain of the red.
Hope, I guess. It was hope and then acceptance over the tiny bird who made me smile, brown not red.
All the Christmas was put away and the boxes tissued the ornaments, lids taped together.
The baby Jesus, solitary without the ceramic lamb, camel, wise men, Mary or Joseph. It rested on the old chair.
Baby Jesus was all alone this year.
Partly intentional because I had no space, Christmas was minimal this year.
The little baby Jesus nativity piece was just in the middle of the shelf under all the stockings and a centered pinecone wreath.
I don’t think anyone noticed.
Or they kept it personal.
Christmas is about Jesus.
I didn’t tell them, not my children, other family or friends.
Gatherings were crowded, food and gifts.
Baby Jesus was among us.
“What is the price of five sparrows—two copper coins? Yet God does not forget a single one of them.”
Luke 12:6 NLT
Faith is a personal thing, its sharing should be softly serious.
The name Jesus conjures different thoughts for everyone.
Mostly, kept to ourselves, faith growing at our own pace.
The baby all alone, my decision over Jesus.
Not lost on me.
Maybe they knew, said us too.
Remembered what to remember.
I drove later to the busy side of town. The highway widens on the way to support the growth and is bordered for a little bit by fields of pines.
A corner lot had a cluster with a bright golden light in the middle. From a distance I noticed the flash of bright yellow and up close in my passing I saw the most luscious yellow and full of leaves maple.
It seemed not a leaf had been lost so far.
The thought of it lingered and I imagined if I’d had passengers with me, would I have said “Oh, y’all look at that tree!” ?
Or kept it to me because well, it wasn’t lost on me, me intersecting with a beautiful tree; but, if I shared it with others, would the beauty be lessened?
happy birthday to a rare bird
This sentiment was for me on my last birthday.
Yes, birds and me.
I’m known by my children.
Their acceptance of me,
It is not at all lost on me.
Errands complete except for one and the roar is not letting up in my ear, not debilitating, just annoying.
Reminding me I’m human and aging.
Remember you’re not invincible. Your physical is affected by your mental, Lisa. Slow the rush, calm the hurry.
Then I choose the “go to” prescription.
I go to Panera for a sandwich.
Something about a sandwich still makes the most sense.
In the parking lot of the office supply place, I devour the roasted turkey, the bacon, the bread. I arrange the soft avocado so as each bite makes a pattern.
Sandwich joy, again.
Indulgence becoming belly fat.
Not lost on me.
I want to be alone with my sandwich.
A little beat up truck pulls into the spot directly in front of me.
Faded white, weathered and dented old Chevy S-10 (my daddy drove a forest green one about the same year model. I try not to remember.) The truck is so small, like a toy and on the bumper is rigged up a gold and green wreath, faded red ribbon and the big word dangling, “Noel”.
Curious. Now I’m curious.
They talk for a minute, both look up to see me eating.
Then the passenger, a beautiful woman in either church or funeral dress steps out. Her hair is coiffed in a side bun, her flowing dress a cobalt blue and her pearls are perfection at the collar.
I watch as she beats on the window and then the man dressed more casually emerges with her cane.
Distinguished in his “dungarees” he is.
His skin the color of a Hershey bar and his strong jaw bordered in perfect grey, he follows his female companion and glances into my passenger window.
He nods. I smile and he smiles back.
He saw me watching them and it was all good and I decide since he decided to drive around with “Noel” on the front of his truck that he loves Christmas.
That he loves Jesus too.
Not lost on me, the little things of yesterday.
The satisfaction of seeing a sparrow instead of a cardinal.
The flash of brilliance amongst the predictable.
The “Christmas man”, simple and stoic companion to a beautiful woman.
He watched me eating yet another sandwich and with a nod told me.
It’ll all be okay.
Noticing God, I sometimes call it.
Maybe it’s really noticing everything.
And I can’t help remember now my little boy son’s response one day…
What if he’s Jesus? JAS at age 7 or so.
Maybe an angel, maybe there are some here.