I should become educated on birds and their differences.
Birds I decide are hawks because I think of my daddy are usually buzzards.
My husband or daughter will tell me and I’ll cling to the hawk story because I like it better.
Still, they interest me. I notice.
I am fascinated by what looks like freedom to go and to be and to live with beautiful ease.
Three birds in the distance careening in a weave.
They were funneled through the foggy sky.
Flying together for me to see and then dipping down in the valley behind the tall pines for a minute then showing themselves again.
Then, the sound, the “ca-caw” told me they were crows which I only recently learned are different than the raven.
The raven, a little more special I have learned.
Still, I watched and I wondered where are they going, are these even the same three birds as before?
Then the fog began to let blue and sunlight through and three birds played, the same or maybe another trio danced a waltz of synchronicity just for me.
“The wind blows to the south and goes around to the north; around and around goes the wind, and on its circuits the wind returns. All streams run to the sea, but the sea is not full; to the place where the streams flow, there they flow again. All things are full of weariness; a man cannot utter it; the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.”
Ecclesiastes 1:6-8 ESV
And I didn’t wonder as much as before where they’d been
Or how they chose to go where they go or how they know anything at all.
About flying, about existing with no worry.
They just know.
They just know
whether I know anything for sure at all.
Like chasing after the wind or trying to measure the depth of the ocean with my toes.
Like trying to stroke the ebony feather of a beautiful bird, a crow.
Not a hawk, an eagle or raven.
But splendid in the sky, fantastic just for me and my stories all my own.
Like Solomon, I’m convinced it’s all complexity and it’s all worth ponder.
Brave and beautiful and curiously compelling.
Life and knowing.
Like a bird.
Knowing as they go.
Some things are worth knowing only a little or really nothing at all.
Like flying in the fog, it surely must be just knowing all is well, the wide sky is wider than they know.
“For in much wisdom is much vexation, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.”
Ecclesiastes 1:18 ESV
Tomorrow I’ll consider the raven, the sparrow, the birds playing in the wintry shrubs.
And I’ll be satisfied in knowing the so little I know.