Hope is the thing with feathers –
That perches in the soul –
And sings the tune without the words –
And never stops – at all – Emily Dickinson
I misplaced my mustard seed, the tiny glass enclosed actual seed that jingled on my wrist, a charm on my bracelet.
I’ve resigned myself not to find it again and decided, someone else may find it and it will be the thing they needed that day and days to come.
They would need the thing called faith.
They would need hope that demands little and remains like the song of a morning bird.
“I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my prayer for mercy.”
Psalms 116:1 NLT
I prayed for mercy yesterday, at least five times. I lost another thing, much more valuable and important, a necessity.
My morning was a panic, I searched in the most outrageous places, the last one was the refrigerator.
I cancelled one morning thing and then decided to carry on, to stop searching for my “dental appliance”, the most embarrassing thing, and do the other.
The other being get dressed, let it go, stop searching, do the important thing.
Take the coral colored roses on the kitchen counter to your friend who has lost her husband, choose what’s more important than your crazy searching.
I prayed again. I told the Lord, I don’t deserve to find this, I don’t deserve your mercy yet again.
Walked away to get myself together and you most likely know, I found my partial in the place I’d left it, on the bathroom counter, safe under a hand towel.
I left the roses on my friend’s front porch, not knowing if they’d be found before the rain.
Just knowing in whatever state or whenever they were discovered, they’d be what God intended,
A thing God told me to do.
Later, I thanked God for finding it and I thought two things.
One, why was I so convinced I’d never find an object in my very own home and more important, why was I so convinced that God would not, yet again, be merciful?
Things I understand more each day.
God is loving, the giver of hope not harm. God is the open arms of grace to the guilty and bent by shame.
God hears every prayer I pray.
God is good.
I’ll never be good enough based on my weaknesses, forgetfulness, haphazard or hurried behaviors.
I have a helper who hears when I call.
To say we’re not deserving is true.
To know that God made a way called mercy is the quiet answer to all our crazy prayers.
Continue and believe.
Let mercy in.
Linking up with others on the prompt “Deserve”.