“…His grace will lead you in small things as well as great.” Jean Nicolas Grou
I returned to my September spot this morning. I told myself October would be a reset in my health, holiness and change.
Instead, very little changed simply by changing my morning spot. If anything it sort of stalled everything. No table for coffee, no place to place my Bible except my lap.
The morning sunlight through the blinds was blinding instead of a glorious welcome.
Still, I stubbornly chose to sit in the spot because someone said it helps to change your routine, helps to motivate you to do simple things like choosing a different chair.
Three days before November, I’m back on the sofa, my spot on the end.
I look to my left and am reminded.
This is the place of my peace, of growth, acceptance and connection with Jesus.
I gaze at the empty chair, the one that was weathered yellow when I took it from my mama’s house. Now it’s a soft white and becoming more worn from sitting, less angelic.
It’s a soft place.
I look towards the wall and see the sunlight beams finding my art. I see why I needed to return and move slowly towards November.
The place on the sofa that accepts me as I am and greets me with how far I’ve come.
I’ll reserve my mama’s chair for reading or for a certain toddler to rest her chin on the arm as she takes a break from being a “monkey jumpin’ on the bed”.
I’ll treasure the legacy of the yellow garage sale chair, the one that felt special in my mama’s old home and is even more at rest here.
The tiny Target pillow amongst the others reminding me to “see good in all things”.
See good and walk freely.
“and I shall walk in a wide place, for I have sought your precepts.”
Psalm 119:45 ESV
Continue and believe.
Keep quietly seeking. You are growing.