I can certainly see why people may find faith, trust and surrender to God as futile activities. All require the giving up of control, of engagement in outcome and of the opportunity to collaborate outcomes for our own lives.
Still, I begin my day with God. Some days, though, I’m only midway through and have forgotten the strength of my time.
I falter, seeking again to see things unclear. Just a few minutes every morning, storing up reserves of wisdom, most likely needed for recall by noon. Some days I’m more disciplined, more connected. Some not.
A day can change directions in an instant when doubt, fear, and insecurities take the wheel.
I’ve begun to read through the Bible this year. I’m up to Chapter 6 of Genesis. Already, I’m understanding Eve and her choice to eat from the forbidden tree in a new way. I can empathize with Eve, the one responsible for changing the plans of God
What a frighteningly honest admission.
The one who caused our viscious cycle of honoring God only to question God. The first of us, responsible for all of man, of woman, incapable of resting in the place of not knowing, the place of trust.
Eve was tricked, she rationalized her behavior…how can it be wrong for me to know good from evil, to know what is to come? The words of the serpent made sense. Sometimes make sense to me.
Then walked on towards home, towards the unknowns of tomorrow.
Its good and its evil, perhaps.
My life in God’s hands.
Content in the reminding.
O’ Lord, in the morning you hear my voice… Psalm 5:3
Thank you Lisa for your honesty, and for your encouragement to start each day with God. While I know the value of doing that I often fail as the busy-ness of life takes over and the time I should have spent alone with God is stolen from me. Some of my hardest days have followed on from my closest times with God, and then I am left wondering how much harder the day might have been had I not started it alone in His presence.
He keeps bringing us back…whether a strong beckoning to return or a simple reminder to remain.